Hobby Modification App; Episode 16, Day 7 : Akane Kousaka 2

　―And I thought I couldn't bear to wear this anymore...

　This is the first time in two years that I have worn this. 

　The last time I wore it was on graduation day. The day I pushed myself to the very limits of what I could do. 

　Although I was the youngest in the group, I took pride in leading the members. 

　I practiced harder than anyone else and put in more effort than anyone else. 

　The costumes from those days of professionalism. 

　I have not lost my professionalism even now, but that time was special. 

    I was expressing myself of my own volition, as I am. 

　Because my mother was an actress, I was told to concentrate on acting so I could be an actress in high school. 

　From a very young age, I became a child actress as my mother told me to, and from there, my mother's plan was for me to be an actress while also being a model. 

　But I wanted to be an idol. These girls were sparkling and shining, I saw them when I was a child actor. 

 　I wanted to be like them. 

　For the first time in my life, I rebelled against my mother. 

　At first, she didn't accept me, but in the end, she forgave me on one condition. 

　The condition was that I quit after junior high school. 

　Therefore, I can only try to be an idol until junior high school. 

　My graduation day is the last chance to show that I am ―this Akane Kousaka, an Akane Kousaka who is on the path she wanted to take. 

　With many people watching me and supporting me, I did the best I could. 

　I think the result was satisfactory. On the day of my graduation, I was shining brightly, even when I look at the VTR of those days. (VTR, videotape recorder)

This is a costume from that most sparkling and shining time. 

　On that day, that day when I said goodbye to my fans wearing this costume, the idol ―Akane Kousaka disappeared. 

　I have no regrets. Everything is over. 

　That's why I haven't worn it since that day. 

　I look at myself in the mirror. 

　It's a little tight around the bust, I grew up fast, but my physique hasn't changed much since then, so even if I look at it now, yes, it looks good enough as it was back then.  

　This is my favorite outfit, a red-based uniform-style design with a checkered pattern.

　Just wearing this outfit gets me fired up. It's a source of encouragement for my soul. 

　I spin around a bit, feeling good about myself. 

　The short skirt flutters, and the red color dances in the air. 

　And at the end, I smile at the mirror. 

　Yes, perfect. 

　I was able to recreate those days, I couldn't help but smile. 

　...It's not so easy to forget in two years, isn't it? Of course not. 

    I look at my reflection as if I were looking at a distant day. 

　I stare at it for a few seconds, shake my head slowly, go to bed and sit on the edge. 

　I glanced at the digital audio player that I kept under my pillow. 

　It contained something that had been haunting me since the day before yesterday. 

　I've been listening to it all weekend, lost in time. I lost track of time. 

　I can feel my face turning red. 

　....Really, I'm at my wit's end. 

　I want to complain about the image that immediately pops into my mind. 

　I want to tell you that you're making my life difficult, and I want you to pamper me with LIME right now. 

　I reach under my pillow, pick up my digital audio player, cradle it to the center of my chest, and close my eyes. 

　I can hear my heartbeat thumping as if it were echoing in the quiet room. 

　一The day before yesterday, I was made aware of something that was beyond my control. Yesterday, I was reminded of it inexplicably. Today, I am conscious of it again. 

　Every time I listen to them for confirmation, I get more and more screwed up. I sink deeper and deeper into the bottomless mire. 

    Whenever I listen to this digital audio player, I am compelled to admit 

　I'm forced to admit to myself that I have feelings for him. ―I think it's my first love. 

　I can't deny it anymore. 

　For the past week, every time I've approached him to deny it, my heart moves closer to him than my body does. 

　I wanted to get closer and closer, and I found myself at the point of no return.

　When I was an idol, I used to look at the members coldly whenever they talked about such things. 

　Because, in terms of merits and demerits, there are only demerits in terms of entertainment activities. 

　Even now that I have quit being an idol, I still think so. 

　A love affair in the halfway stage of your life is only a disadvantage. 

　At least that's what my mom says. 

　I agree with her before. 

　But this feeling―I close my eyelids tightly and hold what I'm holding in my chest even tighter. 

　I feel like crying. This sadness makes me lose my mind. 

　I'm happy when I think of him, but my heart aches helplessly at not being able to see him. 

　I feel like I'm getting a massage in a hot spring, then suddenly, a storm comes in. My mind is a mess, my heart is a mess, and I'm filled with bitterness as if my heart has been drained from my chest. 

　No matter what I do, I can't get my mind off of it. 

　I try to write lyrics to make express my feelings, but what I end up with is a poem of several thousand words. 

    I was thinking about what I like about him, what I love about him, and that's how I ended up with such a poem. 

　Too much emotion to express, too much to handle. 

　I think about it now after all this time. 

　 ...I should have been kinder to members when they asked me for advice. 

　The kind of talk I used to dismiss with a blank stare. The kind of story I had never listened to, wondering what they were talking about. 

　I could have been kinder. I could have been helpful to them.

    Because this kind of feeling is certainly beyond my control. 

    ―However

　I open my eyelids and look down at the outfit I'm wearing. 

    At that time, ―Akane Kousaka would have denied it. 

　I would have been able to dismiss it, saying that if there were only disadvantages, I should stop. 

　When I was called the "perfect idol", I would have been able to soar with my passion.

　―That's why I'm wearing this outfit. 

　With this thought, I switched my mind. 

　I look ahead and quietly take a deep breath. 

　I am here now as I was two years ago. Akane Kousaka when she was an idol. 

　The switch of the idol Akane Kousaka, which I thought I would never turn on again. 

　Like putting down a hammer, I certainly turn it on. 

(I think she's talking about the judge’s hammer. The hammer came down to indicate that a final decision had been reached.)

　I can feel the inside of my head cooling down. 

　I naturally become in a state where I can analyze the situation objectively. 

　Once the switch was turned on, I was invincible. 

　I am seen by the audience. I am seen by the people involved. I look at everything from a bird's eye view and give my best shot to each of them. 

　I would look at myself objectively, analyze calmly, and always choose the best decisions for any situation. 

　I was able to do that as a matter of course. Now I have it back. 

　I look at the digital audio player in my hand. 

" ..... "

　It's okay. I'm not disturbed. 

　I'm the same person I was when I was invincible. 

　Then I can bear it. I can stand up to this heavy feeling. 

　Now, I cannot afford to fold.

　Because this feeling has nothing but disadvantages. 

　That's for sure. 

　No matter how excited I was, the calm part of me concluded so. 

　Then, I just support that conclusion. 

　I quietly put the earphones attached to the digital audio player into my ears. 

　Then, I press the play button. 

 '――――――'

　I hear his voice. 

　I feel a rush of pleasure spreading through my ears, and then my body tensed up. 

    ―My brain shakes. 

    ―My heart jumps. 

    ―My soul trembles. 

　A bolt of lightning struck the top of my head and went right through my body to the tips of my toes without resistance. 

"Anngh! ♡♡♡"

　I lose my mind. 

　I don't know what my vision is showing me. 

　All I can hear is his voice. 

　The back of my eyes are rolling back, and I can see my drool dripping from the corners of my mouth, which won't close. 

　But I can't help it. I just can't help it. 

　Because I keep hearing his voice♡♡

　I look over and see myself as an idol. 

　I'm the one in the idol's costume, embracing myself with a look of debauchery on my face. 

    The ecstasy in her voice is just like the current me. 

　...So this is how it's going to be

　I see. I understand.

　It doesn't matter whether you're an idol or not. 

　I ―Akane Kousaka is attracted to him from the bottom of my soul. 

　The moment I admitted that, 

"....It's ouuttt♡♡"

　My body arched to the limit. 

　The lightning that had been piercing my brain spread throughout my body, numbing me everywhere. 

　My head was burning, flickering, and flashing all the time. 

　With my dazed head, I grabbed my breast with my right hand on the top of my costume, and then I put my left hand inside my skirt and touched my pussy over my underpants. 

    MMmnh♡ ughhhh♡ chhhu♡

　...It feels good. 

　...It just feels too good. 

　My pussy is so wet that I can see it even on my underpants.

　Every time I touch it, I can almost feel a heated breath escaping from my tightly closed lips. 

　Every time I touch it, I feel my legs stretch horizontally with a jerk. 

    I spontaneously fell backward onto the bed.

　I writhed on the bed. 

　He raped me through my ears. 

　There was no way to escape. 

　My head was pinned down, and he was ravishing my whole body. 

　I was coming, but he didn't stop.

　Instead of stopping, he plays with my breasts and vagina as much as he wants. 

　My body was convulsing all the time, but he didn't stop. 

　If it's like this, I'm going crazy♡♡

　I can't think about anything anymore. ♡♡

　The moment when my mind is completely bleached white, 

"―Ugh, commingg♡♡"

    My body, which has been bent over, is further bent over to the limit. 

　It feels as if I am becoming a bridge with my head and buttocks as the pillars. ( Ո ) 

　It should be an impossible position, but my body doesn't come back to the same position as it was before. 

　All I could feel was my hand between my legs and my love juice spurting out through my underpants. 

"―Haa♡♡ "

　I don't know how many times I came. 

　Before I knew it, my skirt was off, and my uniform was rolled up to my neck. 

　I don't know how long it has been like this. 

　My shorts were still around my right ankle, my bra was still slid down over my breasts, and I was playing with my sensitive spots. 

　He plays with my nipples and my clitoris as hard and thoroughly as he wants to do in my head. 

　My pussy was spilling so much love juice that the sheet was all soggy. 

　I scooped up my love juice and smeared it on my hard nipples, then pinched them up with my fingertips and rubbed them. 

"Ahhh ♡♡"

　That's all it takes to make my body jerk. 

To prevent my jerking body from falling because of the pleasures of my nipples, I inserted my middle finger into my clitoris and scratched the front side of my pussy.

　I felt a strange sensation that made my body tremble. 

　Immediately, I pressed on the clitoris, and the pleasure sparked in combination with the strange sensation. 

"Hyaah... ♡♡"

　It feels good. Everything feels so good. 

　Happiness came from my ears, and pleasure came from my body. 

　I'm going crazy♡

　Geez, I'm seriously going crazy♡

    Every time I hear his voice in my ears, my body is bent over from sheer happiness. 

　Whenever he speaks, arrows of pleasure keep falling to my ears. 

　The pleasure is so strong that I shake my head desperately, but he never stops. 

　On the contrary, he touches me harder and harder. 

　He wants me. 

　At the moment, I think so, I squeeze my nipples and my clitoris, hard. 

"Commee ♡♡♡"

　My body bounces on the bed. 

　I'm coming♡ I keep coming♡♡

　I can hear him in my ears. The tingling sensation that runs through my body continues for a long time. 

　He never stops attacking me. 

　An endless loop of pleasure. 

　Ruined ♡ I'm going to be ruined ♡♡

　I think so, and yet I do as he tells me to do, torturing my breasts, my clitoris, and my pussy thoroughly. 

"oohhh♡ "

　The back of my eyes turns inside out. I don't know what I'm thinking about. 

　All I know is that it feels good. 

　All of this just feels too good. 

　Everything is blown away. 

　Who I am now, who I was when I was an idol. 

　There is nothing here. 

　There is only the thought that I love him. 

　The moment when everything is blown away,  I finally recognize what is left in my heart. 

"Sa...to......♡♡♡"

　I was whispering his name in a voice of debauchery. 

    ―My voice had died out before I knew it as if the battery had run out. 

　I could tell from the feel of his hand on my crotch, spread wide open, that warm liquid was still coming out of me. 

　As I felt my hand on my crotch, I thought to myself

　―Tomorrow, I will express my feelings 

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