Hobby Modification App; Episode 28, Day 11: Rin Yukishiro 3

    ―I force the drone to terminate the video feed. 

　I couldn't watch any more. 

" ... "

　I can't process my emotions over the images that have just been stuck in my brain. 

　I was lonely and in pain―but most of all, I was in love, and my brain was a jumbled mess. 

"Ah.....oh....."

　I can't breathe. 

　Only a few breaths escaped from my lips. 

    But my heart is so painful that I don't care about the pain. 

　The last image sent from the drone has become an indelible image in my head. 

　It appears in my mind. I can't help it. 

　Keisuke's eyes were looking at me. He was testing me. He was testing my love. 

　I'm going crazy. 

　He holds another woman and tells me with his eyes that I should only look at him. 

    It feels like he despises me, and yet he tells me with his eyes that he does not despise me. 

　He is trying to make me drink a little bit of love, crave Keisuke, and make me conscious of him. 

　It's like giving water to a dehydrated person in the desert, drop by drop, in the name of love. 

　Breaths continue to escape my lips, hissing. 

　It's painful. It's hurt. I'm in pain. 

　I'm always watching. I only see him. 

　But it's not enough. 

　I don't have enough love to see only him. 

　What more could I possibly need? 

　I didn't know. 

　I didn't know anything. 

"Ah..."

　Not enough oxygen. I didn't have enough oxygen, as if all the alveoli had disappeared from my lungs. 

　When I thought my eyes went dark, I plopped down on the desk with a clatter. 

　My consciousness flickered. 

　Perhaps my body pushed the keyboard on the desk, and typing errors echoed from my PC. 

　I think with my oxygen-deprived mind. 

　I don't care how smart I am in relative terms, but the people around me have always called me a "monster" since I was a child. 

　Not a genius, but a monster. A title was given to the inhuman. 

　In other words, I'm beyond human understanding. 

　I mocked myself in the blacked-out world. 

　What could be funnier than that? 

　There are so many things I don't understand. 

　I don't know what I'm missing in my love. 

　I don't know what's in that phone he's so obsessed with. 

　Thinking back, I started analyzing what was in that phone, and that's when I started being stingy. 

    If I had followed the directions on that phone, I might not have felt so much jealousy. 

　I feel frustrated just thinking about it. 

　I know that human beings made it. 

　I know that it is made by someone close to my thought process. 

　But I can't reach another step. One more step is hopelessly out of reach. 

    It was as if to say there was a superior version of me. 

　The flickering of consciousness becomes worse. 

　Not enough. Not enough oxygen. 

　I don't know what's on his phone. 

　I don't know why my love is missing. 

　Oh, I don't have enough. Not enough oxygen. 

    It's painful...

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　―The next thing I know, the night has fallen, and the alarm is blaring in the room, announcing his return. 

　Was I asleep? No, I was unconscious, I guess. 

　I don't know how long I was out. 

　I didn't know, but I knew I had something to do. 

　I didn't know everything, but that's why I knew what I had to do something. 

　I have been approaching him for a while now, but his reaction to my body is not good. 

    Still ―if he is interested in a woman's body...

　I stood up, supporting my shaky body, and went to the front door. 

* * *

　―Right in front of me, he is, folded up in my bed.

　I pulled Keisuke, who came home, brought him to my house, and folded him on the bed in my room. 

　He did not say anything to me. 

　He did not resist while I was pulling his hand. 

    He didn't say anything when I grabbed him or stripped naked while grabbing him. 

　He just looked at me as if he was observing me. 

　That alone made me shiver. 

　He is looking at me. He is observing me. That fact made my body and heart tremble to the core. 

　Just that fact alone sent a crazy trail of evidence of what I felt dripping from between my legs. 

　As if in response to his eyes, I put my lips deeply on his lips. 

　I wiggle my tongue like a snake to his lips and enter his mouth in one breath. 

　I feel his warm tongue on the tip of my tongue. 

　Immediately his tongue entwined with my tongue, and I started to make a slurping sound. 

　I make love to his tongue. 

　But he doesn't respond to me. 

    I kiss him desperately, trying to melt his lips with mine. 

　My lips and his lips touch each other without any space between them, and a lewd sound is made incessantly. 

　But that's all. 

　He doesn't move. 

　Not like the kiss that he showed me today. 

　He does not kiss me as he did with Ichijouin. The kiss showing we want each other. 

　

    But if you still look at me, just me, even for this moment...

　My eyes widen at sight in front of me. 

　I see him looking in the other direction as if he has lost interest in me. 

　His tongue stops moving. 

　At the same time, the lewd sound his lips were making stopped. 

　His eyes widen, and his lips part. 

　I look up at him, and his face moves away from me. 

　He does not look at me for a long time. 

　...I put my hands on his cheeks and traced his face line. 

　He does not care. He does not look at me at all. 

　In my mind, I see him having an affair with other women. 

　Keisuke also takes the initiative on them. 

　Why can't I be in that position? 

　I couldn't understand. I never understood. 

　My hand stops caressing his face line. 

　I want you to look at me. 

　―I want him to make me feel love like they do. 

　　But I didn't know what should I do. 

　I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. 

　―I don't know how to make him love me. 

　I love you so much. 

　I'm crazy in love with you. 

　My love will never lose to anyone. 

　I can't use my body, and I can't do anything to you. 

　Then, what should I do? 

　What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do?

　His face turns surprised. 

    I noticed drops of water from my eyes dribbling down his face. 

"Ah...ah..."

　The number of droplets was getting larger and larger. 

　I couldn't hide it anymore.

　As far as I remember, I was crying for the first time in my life. 

    I was crying out loud right in front of him. 

　I was so disoriented that I couldn't think of anything. 

　I was just crying like a baby, sad, bitter, and not knowing what to do. 

　Suddenly, his hand touched my cheek. 

"....Sorry, Yukishiro."

　His eyes and his words shot through me. 

　For the first time, he looked at me properly. 

　Not his usual observant gaze. He is looking at me with his true gaze. 

　He is looking at Rin Yukishiro for the first time. 

　At the moment of this realization, my brain releases a happy substance. 

　Happiness to the point that my body falls apart.

　Endorphins, serotonin, oxytocin, and dopamine. I don't know what's going on in my brain anymore. 

　Because he's watching me. 

　He's looking at me like he's accepting me. 

　It's a kind of look he's never given me before. 

　A look that wants to know me. 

　He lets me know with his gaze and expression that he is interested in me. 

　Instantly, my upper body jumps into a shrimping position. 

　The world is distorted. The world is distorted with happiness. 

　My whole body is a ton of happiness. 

"Unggh♡♡"

　Brain creaking pleasure. 

　Euphoria to the point of cognitive flight. 

　I can't breathe. ......♡

　I'm in pain. Despite the pain, despite the pain, I'm... happy...♡♡

　I feel white in front of my eyes. But Keisuke's hand on my cheek connects me to reality. 

"...Yukishiro, what do you want to do? "

　His voice echoes through the white world. 

　....What do you want to do? 

　It's a given. 

　For living creatures, the behaviour that determines their love is a given. 

　That's why I envied her. Deep down, I envied. 

    By doing that, her love is surely complemented. 

　There are so many things I don't understand, but that's all I know. 

".... I want to do it. I want to have sex...! "

　I don't know if I'm speaking well. 

　Because the world seemed blank in my eyes. 

    Still, I hold my hand on my cheek and try my best to speak. 

　一I want to have sex. 

　The word "sex" escapes my lips like a mumble. 

　If I stopped mumbling, he would leave me. 

　So I whisper desperately that I want to have sex with him. 

　Then I felt a warm touch on both cheeks. 

　When I realized that his hands were on my cheeks, his arms were already pulling my head lightly. 

"Ahh..."

　Suddenly, his face appeared in the blank world. 

　He was so close that I could hear him breathing. 

　At that distance, I felt him open his mouth. 

[Yukishiro, let's have sex.]

　My body trembled. 

　At this moment, at this time, it didn't matter to me whether my love was enough or not. 

    Even if it was Keisuke, I would not let him deny it. 

　All my love engraved in every cell of my brain affirms it. 

　The love overflowing from my whole body had certainly completed the form of love at that moment. 

"...Yes, I'll do it. ♡♡♡"

　With my whole body trembling, I reach out my hands to his cheeks and kiss him hungrily. 

　Mmwwu♡  Mmmffw♡

　While kissing him, I put one hand on the lower half of his body, pulled down his pants zipper, and then took out his penis from inside. 

　I lifted his waist and guided his penis to my crotch, and I felt the hot sensation against my vagina. 

　As I rocked my hips, I felt the tip of his penis buried inside me. 

　―At the same moment, without hesitation, I sat down as if I were going to penetrate to the deepest part at once. 

　Every tenth of a second counted. 

　It must have hurt. 

　Because my pain receptors are definitely sending out a pain signal. 

　But what does it matter? 

　He's inside me. 

　That alone distorts my brain. Cognition goes haywire. 

"Ohh ggh ♡♡"

　My eyes go blank, and the words out of my mouth don't make any sense. 

　But even so, I keep shaking my hips as hard as possible. 

　I can perceive the lewd sound echoing all the time. 

　The sound drives me even crazier. 

　The proof that he is penetrating my womb drives me crazy.

　The pleasure that was tingling from the lower part of my body was rising in my spinal cord endlessly. 

　Every time the pleasure rises, my brain tells me to stop because I'm already coming. 

　Whenever my brain made a racket, I silenced it by engraving my love for him deep into every brain cell. 

　I screwed his penis into the womb with a squeaky sound each time to confirm my love for him♡.

　I felt a creepy sensation from the tip of my toes to the top of my head, and the hairs on my body stood on end. 

　A moment later, I ground my hips more heavily and slammed his penis into my uterus. 

　Sparks fly behind my eyes, and my whole body jumps. 

"Ah ohhh ohhhhhh♡♡"

　I can feel the back of my eyes turning inside out.

　The world goes from white to black. 

　But I don't stop grinding my hips. 

　I handle it desperately to make the thing stuck between my legs spit out all the contents into my body. 

　I don't want to use contraception. 

    I know how he usually does it. 

　He's going to make me take birth control pills later. 

　But he has given me permission to have sex. The act of procreation. 

　Then we'll conceive. Let's get pregnant. 

　I'm going to squeeze the life out of him. 

　As long as he spits it out into my vagina, the rest won't matter. 

　Sperm can live up to three days in the vagina. 

　I squeeze his cock with my whole vagina and body so that no sperm can escape. 

　I can feel that my uterus is descending to the maximum. 

    The uterus inserts his penis inside.

    He's coming. 

　All the way, deep down. 

    My vision already becomes pitch black before I know it. 

　But I keep pounding my womb. I keep pounding it with his penis. 

　I need to get his sperm in my womb. 

　That's all I can think about as I move my hips frantically. 

　The only word in my brain is 'impregnate'. 

　I move my hips. And I try to feel what's happening in my lower body. 

　Every time I move my hips, my uterus is poked by his cock. 

　Every time the uterus is struck, a specific word flows into the brain. The word 'impregnate me'. 

　Smack-. I keep pounding. 

    Impregnate me...

　Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me. Impregnate me――

"Ugh, Yukishiro, I'll let it out!"

　At that moment, I felt something hot being poured into my womb. 

Sprrtt- Splurrtt- Speww-

　My uterus drank what it had been craving with gusto and relish.

　I was already at my limit, and when I recognized it, my body fell forward. 

　―I heard Keisuke's heavy breathing. 

　My breath must be ragged, too. 

　My vision is dark, and I can only vaguely hear sounds. 

　My five senses were almost useless. 

　All I know is that I am stroking my lower abdomen, where the uterus is located. 

　That was the only thing that I surely perceived with my whole will. 

　Then I felt Keisuke put something in my mouth. 

　I gulp it down. 

　I knew what he made me drink. 

　I knew what he wanted from me. 

　Even after I understood, I gently stroked the uterus's position in my lower abdomen. 

* * *

　―When I regained all consciousness, I thought about the future. 

　He is still under my body. 

　I wonder if it was his kindness that kept him from moving as I had fainted. 

　I feel happy when I think of that. 

　And with that, a thought comes to my mind. 

　Yes, the existence of the other women.

　What should I do with them? 

　Perhaps it's the effect of being tied to him, but I have a proportional amount of coal tar-like feelings along with my love for him. 

(にコールタール, kōrutāru again)

　I wanted to―

　At that moment, just out of the corner of my eye, I saw his phone glowing in rainbow colours. 

　At that moment, something flows through me. 

　―I see. So that's what this is about. 

　The intense jealousy that had been swirling in the depths of my heart fades away. 

　Well, it's fate. 

　What popped into my mind was the [change my destiny] that the simulation tool had given me before I came to this school. 

　I am not particularly attached to my creations, but I felt like kissing that tool at this moment. 

　I raise my upper body, put my hands on his cheeks, and stroke them slowly. 

　My vision blurs more and more. 

　Tears were streaming down my eyes. 

"...Keisuke... "

　The name of my love. The name of my beloved, wherever he is, whenever he is. 

　I was smiling naturally. 

　Keisuke looks surprised again. 

"...Yukishiro has become much more emotional."

　He says kindly. 

    But I guess he must be chuckling inside. 

　I can feel it. 

　I've known him for a long time, and I can tell. 

"...because Keisuke made me human..."

　That's right. The crime of making me human is a heavy one. 

　So, always, anywhere. I'll be by your side. 

　We finally met. 

　I finally found you. 

　The app's working. 

　Then all I can do is observe. 

　I don't know what will happen next. 

　Whatever happens, I'll accept the outcome of Keisuke's choice. 

　Hopefully, this time...

* * *

[―Well, a God, then... it is like what Yukishiro said. Or, to put it in a game-like way, a variant of God?]

(神の変異種って, Kami no Hen'i-shu, Kami = God, Hen'i-shu = Mutant,)

[... glad you remember. Yes, as I said before, it is not God that we are aiming for. It's a variant of God.]

[So, it's a God variant application]

[ Yes, that's right. Well, that's too direct, so I'll change it a bit... I wonder what would you name this app, Keisuke?]

[You don't want to be found out, do you? Then, based on that feature, yes, it's a kamihenisyu app in the Roman alphabet, so you can rearrange it―]

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Answering Airlol comments : Honestly, I don't know. I read the novel as I translated it, but I think it was part of the novel, not the author's note. No other information in the novel.